The Quiet Weight on the Soul: Naming and Healing Sloth
There is a kind of tiredness that sleep does not cure. You can be productive, busy, even outwardly faithful—and yet feel strangely unmoved by prayer, indifferent to God, dulled to joy. You still believe, but the heart feels heavy. Spiritual things feel demanding. God feels distant, not because He has withdrawn, but because something in us has quietly lost its desire to move toward Him. The Christian tradition has a name for this: sloth , or acedia . According to Thomas Aquinas , sloth is not mere laziness. It is a spiritual sorrow —a sadness toward spiritual good itself. It is the weariness that makes prayer feel burdensome, holiness feel unrealistic, and intimacy with God feel like too much effort. The soul begins to turn away, not in rebellion, but in fatigue. This is what makes sloth so dangerous and so subtle. It does not shout. It sighs. When Spiritual Good Feels Heavy Acedia whispers that prayer can wait. That God will understand if we skip today. That spiritual effort is ...